Welcome to my corner of “Reflexions”. In this section I invite you to laugh and maybe sometimes even cry, however we will have fun and hopefully learn and discover something new about ourselves and life. Let’s keep in mind that we are just visiting this beautiful planet and our goal is to enjoy our existence as well as learn to our best potential the lessons we are presented through our venture.
Have you ever imagined what would you do if one normal day you wake up, go through your normal morning routine and suddenly discover something in your body which is not normal and decide to go and see the doctor and after the pertinent exams, the doctor informs you have a rare and very aggressive cancerous tumor? Later on the surgeon/oncologist coldly give you a prognosis of your life expectancy. Basically you have been given a death sentence.
A few months ago I had this experience. This journey has become the hardest challenge of my entire life. While I still was at the doctor’s office the day I was given the news, I felt as if I had entered a different dimension, I was vaguely listening to his voice in the background as a murmur. My ears could only hear the doctor’s words as a broken record, “I’m so sorry, it is a very aggressive and rare type”. “I felt totally alone, confused, helpless and in a state of shock.
My sight was blurry, I left the doctor’s office as zombie, with a sensation of floating and without knowing where I was heading to, my mind could not coordinate. I lost track of time. Finally I found my car, opened the door and collapsed in the driver’s seat releasing my head to the back and squeezing the steering wheel as hard as I could, I tried to contain my tears while thoughts came randomly: “God what am I going to do, I don’t feel I’m dying, should I call my husband? How do I tell my children, I’m so confused, is this is the end? Oh my God, help me!
Fear and panic started taking over me. I, who always believed and practiced the art of creating one’s happiness and helped others, find it. I spent years listening to people’s stories of despair and coached them to find the bright side and the lesson to learn behind the pain. Now I had to apply that same principle to myself and didn’t know where to start. How could it be possible that this experience would be shaking my faith and the way I always saw and lived life?
I started reflecting and realized I needed to pause and slow down my thoughts because every time I thought about the future I got petrified. My past did not matter either because it already was gone, I was afraid of the unknown, to not seeing my loved ones anymore, I always thought I would see my grandchildren grow up and become adults, get married and have their own children. The invincible person I always thought I was, suddenly became fragile and impermanent, I couldn’t conceive the thought of leaving the planet without completing my mission. All this had happened because of one day and moment my whole life drastically changed. This is just the beginning of many other frightening events and predictions doctors and medical statistics showed.
I started to meditate and learn about deeper principles such as the power of our thoughts and how they affect our wellbeing. I learned that every time I would “think” about the future, I could not be present and enjoy life. I soon discovered that fear is a human feeling that we need to understand, embrace and let go of it.I started my research about this topic and a friend had recommended me in the past to learn more about the author Eckert Tolle and his best seller “The Power of Now”, His philosophy and wisdom helped me little by little to find the light hidden behind fear and worry.
I’ve started to learn about my true being, my Higher Inner Self and overall, I’ve known the meaning of UNCONDITIONAL LOVE, I love and am loved, love heals everything. I’m not alone, we are not alone, we are all connected with the Maker of All.
This is the beginning of an incredible journey of healing and transformation. We all are visiting this planet and soon or later we all will be returning to our origin. Our physical body is just a temporary garment, we are not our title, profession or material possessions or our names or last names, our personality or our job. For me it is taking going through this experience to understand the importance of cultivating myself spiritually and share my story with others who may be in need of learning through some one else,
Today I sleep peacefully; I love and let myself be loved. There is nothing to fear. This moment is my gift and my only reality. I lovingly release my past and focus only on the now. This is just one reflexion I share with all of you of my blessed journey.
Until next time!
Have you ever imagined what would you do if one normal day you wake up, go through your normal morning routine and suddenly discover something in your body which is not normal and decide to go and see the doctor and after the pertinent exams, the doctor informs you have a rare and very aggressive cancerous tumor? Later on the surgeon/oncologist coldly give you a prognosis of your life expectancy. Basically you have been given a death sentence.
A few months ago I had this experience. This journey has become the hardest challenge of my entire life. While I still was at the doctor’s office the day I was given the news, I felt as if I had entered a different dimension, I was vaguely listening to his voice in the background as a murmur. My ears could only hear the doctor’s words as a broken record, “I’m so sorry, it is a very aggressive and rare type”. “I felt totally alone, confused, helpless and in a state of shock.
My sight was blurry, I left the doctor’s office as zombie, with a sensation of floating and without knowing where I was heading to, my mind could not coordinate. I lost track of time. Finally I found my car, opened the door and collapsed in the driver’s seat releasing my head to the back and squeezing the steering wheel as hard as I could, I tried to contain my tears while thoughts came randomly: “God what am I going to do, I don’t feel I’m dying, should I call my husband? How do I tell my children, I’m so confused, is this is the end? Oh my God, help me!
Fear and panic started taking over me. I, who always believed and practiced the art of creating one’s happiness and helped others, find it. I spent years listening to people’s stories of despair and coached them to find the bright side and the lesson to learn behind the pain. Now I had to apply that same principle to myself and didn’t know where to start. How could it be possible that this experience would be shaking my faith and the way I always saw and lived life?
I started reflecting and realized I needed to pause and slow down my thoughts because every time I thought about the future I got petrified. My past did not matter either because it already was gone, I was afraid of the unknown, to not seeing my loved ones anymore, I always thought I would see my grandchildren grow up and become adults, get married and have their own children. The invincible person I always thought I was, suddenly became fragile and impermanent, I couldn’t conceive the thought of leaving the planet without completing my mission. All this had happened because of one day and moment my whole life drastically changed. This is just the beginning of many other frightening events and predictions doctors and medical statistics showed.
I started to meditate and learn about deeper principles such as the power of our thoughts and how they affect our wellbeing. I learned that every time I would “think” about the future, I could not be present and enjoy life. I soon discovered that fear is a human feeling that we need to understand, embrace and let go of it.
I started my research about this topic and a friend had recommended me in the past to learn more about the author Eckert Tolle and his best seller “The Power of Now”, His philosophy and wisdom helped me little by little to find the light hidden behind fear and worry.
I’ve started to learn about my true being, my Higher Inner Self and overall, I’ve known the meaning of UNCONDITIONAL LOVE, I love and am loved, love heals everything. I’m not alone, we are not alone, we are all connected with the Maker of All.
This is the beginning of an incredible journey of healing and transformation. We all are visiting this planet and soon or later we all will be returning to our origin. Our physical body is just a temporary garment, we are not our title, profession or material possessions or our names or last names, our personality or our job. For me it is taking going through this experience to understand the importance of cultivating myself spiritually and share my story with others who may be in need of learning through some one else,
Today I sleep peacefully; I love and let myself be loved. There is nothing to fear. This moment is my gift and my only reality. I lovingly release my past and focus only on the now. This is just one reflexion I share with all of you of my blessed journey.
Until next time!
